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Sunday, October 30, 2005 i'm like stuck to the com these few days... hahas... so sian lar... today's my off day... muz sleep and rest as much as i could, or else the whole of next week i also can't get much rest... i felt so old now. i'm actually missing everything in the world. i misses days of 4e3, misses days of ms chang's choir, misses the old tommy jeans. maybe is because of the absent of dickson and alan at work?? not that i'm unhappy at work, actually its quite fun with yucui they all, but i just suddenly misses the old times of tommy. i guess this is human feeling lar... we will always think that whatever that we "experience" first in one place is the best. and when smtg changes, part of our mind will somehow cannot accept it. like last time when ms chang left choir, we cannot accept anyone that came, cos she's unreplaceable in our heart. we didn't even give any chances to anyone then, that's why end up... hais... call me mad or what ever, but i also misses times chionging for sales. although i know, just a part timer right, but when u see u hit target that particular day, or catch a big fish, u will have the sense of achievement one... i also misses times when the guys always try and make me laugh w all their craps... like jae, and wq... hahas... am i the same ah girl that they used to call? misses being the youngest. changes, hais... {12:58:00 pm}
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Saturday, October 29, 2005 choice; am so borified. afternoon shift... now slacking at home... and i'm hungry. nothing for me to eat at home. maybe i shld try cooking?? hmm... tell me whether i shld buy dou yu 2 and watch. i feel like chionging vcds this hol. got a lot of vcd i wanna buy. hehex... starting from today to nx wk my schedule is a bit shiong. afternoon, off, full, afternoon, full(B2), full, off, full, afternoon, full. hahas... but after that will be relaxing alr... geez... shld i quit after hols? hmm... i'm feeling quite sianx now liaos. it's just diff frm last time... hais... i misses the days although it's super duper shiong... whatever lar... i'm hungry, gonna look for things to eat... {10:41:00 am}
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Wednesday, October 26, 2005 sick sick* yups, i'm sick. how rare... hahas... a bit of sore throat, den yesterday fever... but i will be alright in no time... geez... the last time i'm sick is abt 9 mths ago, before cyn, i got sore throat. the last time i had fever was abt one and a half yr ago... hahas... somemore yesterday gt work, then the whole day i blur blur one... lucky was morning shift. mon that time went sim lim square w dickson to get his exilim ex-s500... i'm falling in love sia... with his cam... wahahahahas... really damn chio... :D den went rc's hilfiger... cos he's getting one of his pants alter by auntie... so a bit of talking and joking ard w jae... really misses jae ard at taka... haix, so many things changed and happen... after dat we went walk walk ard den i play with his cam... hehez.. when i'm playing w his cam dat time, ql called. so we meet her at tpc. the both of them are just so funny lar... like i'm the most matured one when stuck between them... hahahas... saw a lot of ex beattyian on the way... funny... {6:26:00 pm}
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Sunday, October 23, 2005 this is getting interesting; i'm just so damn sleepy. but first i hv to recap the whole of yesterday. morning shift. new shoes at tommy !! but this new batch is damn ex lar, cheapest also alr 100... but all are really damn chio lohx... there's kindda a small "fight" between faridah and dickson... haix... i also nothing to say. during break dat time, me and aziera went for lunch at long john. and guess who we saw?? or rather what i saw. its seriously damn disgrace of beatty... i mean there's a line between trendy and slutty... hahahhahas... oh yar, i haven say what i saw. i saw winnie heng being like an uncivilised prostitute. sorry if my words are harsh but this is my opinion. its okay to expose a bit of flesh but we also have to see whether its suitable what. some ppl can make it become sexy but some ppl will just make themselves look slutty. haix... its not even slutty, it looks more like child prostitute. moreover, she speak with this uncivilised ah lian tone. aziera even ask me whether is she deaf... i doubt beatty ever teach her any social etiquette... i actually planned to watch fashion show w ser one, but my work end slightly late and my mum forgot to bring her keys and i gotta pass her mine... so i take train to kallang, pass my mum the keys, den to city hall, pass ser her birthday present, and back to orchard to meet ql. cos in the end i lazy to go watch the fashion show. but ql say she will be late so i walk walk ard orchard first. frm orchard mrt, i walked to wheelocks', den to forum(to see whether lesbo is working, but din get to see her), back to wheelocks',shopped in esprit, zara, borders, walk back to wisma, shopped at topshop, surfbabe, tannlines, esprit, den ql arrive. oh, the funny thing was, someone, an auntie somemore asked me for lighter !! what the fuck ! when i say i dun have, she was like give me this shock and doubt look and say, "u don't smoke?" wahahahahahas... really damn fucking crap lohx... seriously, i look like a smoker meh?? pls lar... if i say i dun hv means dun hv le mah, still wan to ask whether i smoke, isn't it obvious?? such an insult. i know, cos i look a bit lian, but pls dun judge a book by its cover k... anyw, ql came to my hse for sleepover... hahahas... for 8 yrs plus of our friendship, we nv went to each other hse for sleepover before lohx... hahahas... but the most funny part was dat when i'm talking on the phone w dickson, she insist that we use speaker... really beh ta han her... i also gotta pei fu dickson how he lame w her... i really can't help but laugh till siao lohx... but she kindda fall asleep, so i continue to talk to him... haix... so many so many stuff... so so so complicated... haix... after i hang up w him at ard 230am, ql woke up, den we ate cheesecakes, drank milo, talk crap till 4+. den sleep. hahahas...
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my messy room, just after we woke up.
big big mirror of my wardrobe, me and ql still slacking in bed.
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Friday, October 21, 2005 <3 so bored, and nobody is free. haix... : woke up at 11 today, such a pig. slack ard hse, plucked my eyebrow, watched tv and talk to ser on phone. what an interesting day. going to gym after i finish blogging... yesterday went swimming w dickson in the morning. and the weather was so damn cold. hahahahas. it was me that insist that i want to go lar. so anyw, we went to sim lim square in the afternoon, cos he want to buy a camera... casio exilim ex-s500 is just damn chio lar... clink here after dat we went bugis to watch transporter 2... quite nice... kenna nag by mum again. i'm so sian lar... like got so many prob liddat. just dun wan to think abt it... i'm actually quite happy with what it is now... so whatever lar... edited 23:42 just came back from j8. gyming was so great !! i really misses those days when i always went gyming and running after school. haix... but anyw, ran on the treadmill- 6 laps for 12 33mins. consider ok on treadmill... den do some training... like the abs training, vertical chest and the thigh thingy. cycled a bit, and also done the pulling thingy (i really dunno what it call). den went for another slow run of 5 laps which was 10 45mins. hahahas. so shiok sia... & my weight now is 42.8 kilograms. hmmm.... after that, went j8 w mum while sis was having her gymnastics class. saw junying !! the funny thing was mum actually choose the sit next to her friends and she can't recongise her... hahas... my mum always hv a way to chat with my friends damn well, really dun understand why... hahas... but found out that her bf actually lived nx block to mine... no wonder i keep knocking into her these few months... {3:46:00 pm}
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Wednesday, October 19, 2005 in a mist of boredom; first day of hols alr getting bored. its like suddenly nothing to rush for, nothing to stress for... hahas... but its a gd thing lar. i need a few days' rest. den i will start to seriously get down to do what i plan. i have a lot of serious readings have to finish. my mags !! i think the last two months' mag i like just browse thru only. gotta read them again. my novels !! i haven finish the one i bought last time, and i just bought a new one today. and there's two more i just borrowed frm the lib... hahahahas... really got a lot of readings to do... this is what i plan to finish by the end of hols: - finish two canvas. i just love painting !! i'm still thinking abt the size, but first i gotta plan and draw out a draft first. den will start shopping for my canvas. -read as much chinese novels as i can. probably 2 per week?? -run as much as i can... i dun wan to give myself any target but will try to everyday run or at least five times a wk. -swim as much as i can :] -write some novels. i dun wan to lose my ability to write too. i guess that's all le lar... am i over estimating myself ?? hahas... so yar, today went back to sch to hand in my animation's cd... and am a bit shock. i think i'm the highest mark in my class? 74?? i dun really think i deserve it. cos althought i got put in effort, i din put in my best effort to do it lohx. i only drew 57 sketches while others really drew 100+. what i did was repeation and some adjustment in the com to multiply it to 300+. hahas... used a bit of xiao cong ming... but also gotta thank god that nothing screwed up on me. only last min the sound system crash. and now what, my media art become my best subject. this is so damn funny. oh ya, yesterday went back to sch to grade my clay sculpture before going to work... dickson acc me to sch den we went to eat my sch's hawker wanton mee... hahas... den went town tgt den he went meet his bro. his bro really damn shy... or maybe i shld use the word quiet ?? hahahas... ok, cannot laugh at ppl :x so just now i went roam ard town with yvonne... dat girl damn funny lar... we tgt can become siao cha bo-s... hahahahas... i think dats all le... my sis wanna use com... sianx... {10:40:00 pm}
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Sunday, October 16, 2005 so near yet so far; first time in a year studying for exam and alr getting sick of it... arghx... but whatever. as if i got study for o's liddat. wahahahas. art history, its interesting but damn sickening. but anyw, i gotta 82 marks for my chanel 2.55 essay. i'm so damn damn happy. that's consider an english essay and how much i gotta for my o's? a D7 right?? hmm... and lasalle's class one is 70 marks and above. wahahahahhas. this is damn hilarious. i bought my velvet jacket le. i just love it. love it so so so so muccch. hehex... gotten one for ser too. it so worth it. frm 89.90 to 72. =] actually i realised, since i had my fringe, a lot of ppl been saying i looks like rainie, yang chen lin. esp nowadays. and a lot of other ppl too. but its just rediculars lar... joanne peh? rong zhu er? dai qian yun? fukada kyoko?(this one is too much, i dunno how blind is the eyes). but frankly speaking, i quite like rainie. ever since she host in guess guess guess. i find her cute lar. den now i like her purplish brown hair in her new album, that will be my next colour. now i feel like growing my hair long and keeping my volume fringe. i still wanna keep my girly look, but having dat slightly punk feel. hahahahas, i'm so greedy.  <-- this is the purplish brown hair dat i like !!  <--so cute, short hair her .  {9:28:00 pm}
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Friday, October 14, 2005 quirky habits; name 5 quirky habits that nobody knows about you. #talking to the mirror for the past 14 yrs. the person inside used to/ sometimes still will affect me a lot. #digging my ears till it bleeds. actually is once in a bluemoon. (recently is cos the ants got into my ears, both times i'm talking on the phone, so when trying to dig it out, it bleeds. painful sia. dun laugh, its not funny) #wrape myself up in my thick and comfy quilt without air con without fan, every night when i sleep. #doing stuff alone. be it running, swimming, shopping.... just loves to roam ard aimlessly with my mp3. it clears my mind. ( i guess this a lot of ppl knows) #i loves to get lotsa vege/fish/meat and only 2 tablespoonful of rice for dinner. finish my rice first den will continue eating the rest and always with the television switched on in front of me. hahas... done. really lack of sleep this week. last night only slept for 3 hrs. last last night 4hrs. haix... i know compare to my other friends, i'm considered lucky. at least i gets some sleep. found out that esprit is having 10% off storewide these three days. i really will get my velvet sweater le. cos plus membership card got additional 10%. worth it. now will be ard 72? so i will need to use future money le... so sad... =(( just now after sch when town shop shop alone. after ard an hr plus of shopping, passed by tommy and when in to say hi. found out dickson just left so called to ask him where he was. saw his prettie cousin. so sweet and pretty. anyw, went back to toa payoh. went to lor 4 hawker to hv hao jian. end up da bao-ing everything and went to i think block 52's void deck to eat. so tired. tmr full shift. better go and get some sleep le... {11:09:00 pm}
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Wednesday, October 12, 2005 emotion confess` looking at ser's yesterday entry, makes me feel like writing some stuff... somehow, after much stuff that had happened, i think i get to know myself better. i know that i'm still not prepared to go into a relationship. maybe a few yrs more? what i need is not a boyfriend but just a person that i can lean on. aka, a pillar. i know i'm selfish, but its what i realised after much thoughts. yar, so my guys now are just my pillars. erm, does it sounds awful? what i meant is they are just my close friends that i shall not habour any evil thoughts. *grins*. lets give myself a probation of two yrs? until i really learn how to love then i can go into a relationship. for now i just need ppl to dote on me, care for me, acc me when i'm down and listen to my craps. cos i'm sure i will make a very bad girlfriend. to me if i can get over someone so quickly den i'm only treating him as a pillar; not someone dat i loved. i think what they hurt is not my heart but my pride. is that why i'm still avoiding them? due to pride? i guess so. and they had kill all my trust for them. or u can say i'm just petty lar... moral of the story? don't lean on a pillar too hard, it will collaspe one day. this is what i wan to point out to ser, but cannot say too much or t monster will come and kill me... hahahahas... cleared my drawing assignment. one down four to go. six more days to hols. two major one on fri and history exam on mon. tues will be just going back and let david grade my clay sculpture. but now... i dunno. politics. that's a really hard thing to solve. in social world, its like that. haix... {5:12:00 pm}
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Sunday, October 09, 2005 i wan that espirt red velvet sweater** yups. spot my "next target". hahas... i'm going to buy it as soon as i get my nx month pay... but that's 21 more days which = to 3 more weeks. : i'm going to rush to do my clay sulpture as soon as i finish blogging. nothing much to blog too. met my two darlings on fri, still as pretty as ever(same as me =P). hhahas... worked yesterday. busy day. cos of taka sale, its storewide 20% not everything free, can ppl be more civilize? hmm... what's wrong w me? why am i putting a shield between me and her? when can i walk out of it? i dunno. i guess things will never be the same again. had a pretty scary nightmare last night... goosebumps are coming out even when i think of it now. here it go... i murdered my grandmother and chop her into pieces and stuff everything into the mattress... i almost puke when i woke up. its really really scary... how can i even dream of such stuff... its damn bad... and in the dream i have a two yrs old daughter, and how cute is she! the damn thing was that we sleep on the mattress everyday... ewwwwww.... but my daughter is damn sweet lar... the way she call me "mummy mummy!!"; how can i forget... but still... its a nightmare!!! {9:34:00 pm}
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Wednesday, October 05, 2005 pretty pretty me in a not so pretty mood; feeling ok la. kindda slack. feel like running away frm all my assignments. :had a quick jog at the stadium just now. how many hell yrs i din run at the stadium le. hahas. realised that my running really deproves a lot, due to lack of practice... haix... worked yesterday. new stocks. fri sat and sun taka sale. will be damn busy. haix... what the fuck. my neck hurts. maybe due to the bad dream that i had last night? maybe? bought a new mascara jux now. maybelline's having five dollars off for all their mascara. hv this love for volume mascara now. loves how my eyes looks with it on. =)) the pretty pretty me is now back. know i haven been doing myself up for the past 1 month. hahas. so now i will be pretty pretty on every weekend and every now and then. ;] and i wan a new pair of sunglasses!!! just realise that i dun have one though. hahas... found lotsa pretty ones online. and they are just damn chio la...
aren't they a beauty?? i just love chanel's and D&G's... so prettie. hahas. if someone ever sponser la.hahas. and i realised smtg funny... those that wanna hint smtg to me abt that incident will always start w i slim down a lot. hahahahas. i dunno whether its gd or bad. but i kindda hv a phobia listening to this sentence. {8:00:00 pm}
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from left to right- Dolce & Gabbana(pink); Emporio Armani(mauve); Chanel(turquoise); Roxy(black); Chanel(i love the pink one); Fossil; Dolce & Gabbana; Roxy; Ralph Lauren.|
Sunday, October 02, 2005 speechless. today is sunday. tmr will be monday. arghx... deadlines are crashing on me!!! i gotta hand up my strawberry model tmr. working on it later. den tmr starting on the clay sculpture and i still dun hv an idea what's going on... went swimming and tanning w dickson on wed... i'm tanner now... =)) loves talking to him, always makes me feel better... anyw, abt the last entry... sorry to make u ppl worry... but i'm really fine... hahas. hmm. and there's still lotsa ppl standing by me... so, i shall not worry or think too much. =D i shall learn how to face reality and stop running away frm prob. but if my attitude was not good, you can't blame me too. right? bought my cute jumper skirt on fri... =] loves it. den went SHOPPING ard town. i'm pretty surprise by myself. how can i manage to shop alone? guess i'm really used to it alr. and am loving it. sometimes doing some stuff alone is an enjoyment too... agree?? oh yar. tommy changed uniform!! only apply to full timers la... but damn funny sia... cos its formal shirts. tuck in. with jeans. wahahahahas... kk... time to do my project le... {12:30:00 pm}
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